Friday, January 6, 2012

Endless Cold

And no I am not just talking about the weather here in Rochester...I have literally had this cold for 3 weeks! It's not getting worse, but it definitely is not getting better. I have been drinking tons of water, getting a ton of sleep and rest, taking my vitamins plus vitamin C, and I just don't know what else to do! It literally is like the endless cold. I don't know what it is from, when I was living in California I would NEVER get sick, maybe get a minor cold once a year but ever since I have moved to New York I have been sick maybe 6 or 7 times and we have been here 5.5 months! Now I think that is pretty ridiculous and I don't know what the deal is. Yes, lack of sun probably does have a little bit to do with it now that there isn't really any to be soaked up. Yes, the cold weather and even more so the drastic change in weather all of the time that we have been having...it would go from snow to 50 degrees in one day then 40 to 6 degrees over night then 6 degrees back up to 30 the next. There are definitely some pretty drastic swing of weather so I am sure that plays a role. Then there is the stress and anxiety of this whole moving/landlord situation...lately it has put in me the most unreal slump/rut/funk whatever you want to call it. I have no energy or motivation to do anything, cook, go to the gym,  clean... nothing. It is absolutely horrible! I literally feel like I am mildly depressed or something and I know that sounds extreme but I don't know how else to explain it I haven't felt this way in so long. I have been in the best of moods and all about positivity the last few months and then this feeling came out of nowhere. I think it has a lot to do with the weather, the being away from my friends and family over the holidays, and now just the pure anxiety over this housing situation (which Bobby keeps reassuring me not to worry about he is dealing with everything). I just want this month of January to be OVER...be moved into our new place and settled and have it all dealt with and done and be on my plane to California to see my besties.

I am trying really hard to pull myself out of this slump, but being sick for so long is not helping at all and its becoming really frustrating because each morning I wake up hoping to be better, at least a little bit, I'm not at all. So, if anyone has any other suggestions I would appreciate it because I don't know that I can handle having this cold on top of everything else for much longer. I know a cold and everything going on is a far cry from how bad it really could be, but its still draining...i hate to complain I really do, but I just needed to vent my frustrations and feelings...

On a GOOD no GREAT note...We OFFICIALLY booked our photographer for our wedding (that is YES a year and a half away)! We booked White Daisy Photography and I couldn't be more excited! Some people were shocked that I would book it this far out, but I knew who I wanted so I made the decision and stuck with it...isn't that what you're supposed to do when planning a wedding...or just in life? haha I definitely did my research on all of the photographers in the area and White Daisy felt like the perfect fit. Originally (before we started researching or got engaged) we wanted our good friend Jackie who did our engagement pictures to do our wedding pictures, but then decided no we want her as a GUEST  more so we decided to find someone else. I am really excited White Daisy has been featured in Real Weddings Magazine I believe twice and she does such a lovely job, nothing too crazy artsy just beautiful, timeless photos. She is also doing two of our good friends' weddings this fall so that was another reason I knew she was great! :)

Today is also my Dad's birthday...Happy Birthday Daddy! I love you and miss you and hope to see you really soon! xoxo


http://whitedaisyphoto.com/blog/    <-----A link to White Daisy's wedding photo blog (also located under other journey's I follow) check her out and see how good she is! ;)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

California

Lately, especially the last few days (probably due to the holidays) I have found myself really missing California...home. I know I am from Oregon and of course I miss my family there, but I consider California my home, I love it there and can't wait to be back for good! I feel bad sometimes when I tell Bobby and my friends here that I miss California; I know Bobby misses it SO much too, maybe more than me and I don't want my friends here to think that they aren't worth being here because they definitely are. I know that God sent us here for a reason, probably multiple reasons. I know we were meant to come here and meet everyone that we have met, experience the things we have been experiencing and I definitely feel blessed that we have this opportunity to live outside of our comfort zones. I have just become really homesick over the past few days, especially today.

Today is definitely the coldest I have ever been...10 degrees with a -4 degree windchill as a high today. Julia and I didn't leave the house because there was supposed to be a big storm so a) I didn't want to get caught in that and b) it was 10 degrees! So, I guess with the weather getting cold and the holidays and the lack of talking to my closest friends as much as I am used to for various reasons I am just really homesick and missing California today.

Like I said before, I always feel bad when I say comments to Bobby about "how did we end up here" or "I miss California" because I know that this isn't where he WANTS to be but its where he NEEDS to be right now. I guess I know that he feels like he "dragged" me here with him, but really there is no way I would have stayed behind while he went to school for two years. So, I try not to say it around him as much because I know he is also really missing home. We are focusing on internships and job opportunities in California, trying to find every possible avenue to get us back to where we want to be. I know Bobby is under a lot of stress as internship deadlines are closing in and he is turning in applications to every possible California based company.

I definitely am SO glad we have met such amazing people here and I know these friendships we have made will be lifelong, I am very grateful for these relationships and I don't want my homesickness to ever come across as ungrateful. I do get to go to Northern California in about a month (a little less) to visit for Laura's baby shower and to go dress shopping with her, Laura, Molly, my mom and Bobby's mom so I think that trip will help a lot, so will getting back to work full time again. We made it through the holidays together so hopefully from here on out it won't be so bad. We have each other and I am also so grateful for that I obviously wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Bobby, but I also wouldn't travel 3,000 miles away from all of my family and friends for anyone else either.  I know we are here for a reason and it is all part of God's plan for us and that, I fully trust in.

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On another note, I don't think I have ever been sick so often, and for so long as I have been since moving here. I swear I never used to get sick in California MAYBE once a year...I have already been sick 4-5 times since I moved here (cold-like stuff nothing serious) and this last one I have had for maybe 3 weeks and I can't seem to get rid of it! It's crazy to me, and never would have thought the climate and lack of sun could do this to my immune system but it has. I am literally lacking in vitamin D and actually need to start going tanning to get some! There really is no sun here right now, it is pretty unreal and you probably wouldn't believe it unless you saw it for yourself. There have been little slivers of sun for a minute every now and then but for the most part it is cloudy and dark with no sun at all. I kept joking about getting seasonal depression but I wonder if I actually could! I didn't want to start tanning again, but it actually going to benefit my health so I am going to start going a couple-few times a week since its also included in my gym membership, hopefully it will make me start feeling a little better too! 1.5 years left to go here! Here's to surviving it!


**Just bought my ticket back to Cali for Laura's baby shower (the plane tickets finally dropped today thank you God...He knew I needed this :) ) and I am SO excited to be back and see everyone!!**

Sunday, January 1, 2012

A New Year--2012!

Happy 2012 Everyone!!! I am so excited that it's the year 2012 and it's a new start to a wonderful new year! 2011 really couldn't have been any better and I fully believe 2012 will still be just as great hopefully better!!

We celebrated New Years Eve with a few close friends last night. It was an all couples (not planned that way really) party and our good friends Theresa and Pedro's house (they hosted Thanksgiving T is a great hostess!). We made it a little black dress/button down shirt for the guys attire to make it more fun, who doesn't love dressing up? Well, sad to say but this girl doesn't even own a LBD so I went on the search the day of looking, no luck though...surprise! I knew I had a black skirt so I just needed to find some festive looking black top which I did at Marshall's. Crisis averted, barely. So we all showed up around 8 last night and dug right into the amazing spread of food that T had prepared which was all super super yummy! We began popping the champagne right away as well, then it was game time! We figured it would be better to play taboo early in the night before everyone got crazy then switched it up to apples to apples since that game doesn't require too much thought lol. It always seems to get really competitive, and there is always a disagreement/argument about something (all in good fun of course). We played these games on Thanksgiving too and I am literally obsessed they are so much fun! So by the time we were finished (we kind of just stopped playing due to the time) it was 20 minutes till midnight!! So we had to get the champagne out to everyone and noise makers etc! Everyone had a partner (since it was all couple) and we all counted down and shared a kiss with our loves. It was really sweet :) Theresa also prepared wishing grapes for everyone, something that her husband Pedro's mom has always done and a tradition I think is really awesome! Everyone gets 12 grapes, one for every month of the new year and you make a wish on every grape for the new year you are celebrating! I totally loved this idea and I will definitely be using this tradition for years to come!

After that excitement we were ready for a mini-dance party in the living room so we put on some music and the girls had some fun. Everyone kind of started to gradually leave between 12:30-2am I honestly don't know how the time flew by so fast, but we ended up being there till 3am. Theresa and I got caught up looking at her wedding photos and talking wedding stuff and the boys I don't know what they were doing haha. So, we finally left, with a to go container full of swedish meatballs, at 3am just in time for all of my west coast loves to be ringing in their 2012!

We were sad that we couldn't be celebrating in California and we definitely miss all of our friends and family, but we are so blessed to have met such amazing people here to spend these special occasions with. We couldn't have had a better night, there is definitely no better way to bring in a new year than with great company, good food, wishing grapes, and games!

The ball dropping haha 

New Years Kiss! Happy New Year 2012!

oh Bobby 

Rebecca and me :)

T and me :)
Pedro, T, Bobby & Me
Now that all of the holiday chaos is over, although we fully enjoyed it, I am glad to get back to some normalcy. Work will be going back to the normal schedule, Bobby starts classes again next monday and I will be back to eating clean and really focusing on my eating and giving it a little extra at the gym! Now I am down to a month before I fly back to California for Laura's baby shower and dress shopping! I am so excited to see her it has been almost a year since I saw her last, which is WAY WAY too long. I miss my best friend and am so looking forward to seeing all of my best girls this visit I miss them all!!! <3

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Livefit update

So, I am currently in Phase 2 of the live fit trainer and going through the holidays has been a bit of a challenge to keep up with everything. We have been doing a pretty good job, but not perfect, which I am completely ok with given its life and stuff happens but I am ready for the holidays to be over and be back to a regular schedule. I have been lacking motivation to cook and prep meals the last two weeks, with our anniversary, christmas eve and christmas chaos I found it hard to keep on course this week too because I got sick. Everything is just kind of out of whack these past two weeks so I will be very glad to get back to a regular schedule, gain my motivation back and get things back on track! I am proud to say that we have been going to the gym 6 days a week leading up to the holidays and we do our best to make healthy decisions (with of course off days over the holidays). I haven't let any of the slip offs make me "feel bad" or anything like that because we have still been getting to the gym. I realize my results probably won't be the best they could have been had I stayed true to the program the entire way through but again, its a lifestyle change and I am just rolling with it and doing my best.

We will probably face another challenge when we move in a few weeks, but hopefully we won't have to miss too many meals/workouts during that time. I am sure we will miss some because moving is a pain in the butt and VERY time consuming and exhausting but that is ok. I am fully prepared and mentally ready to to kick it up a notch on Monday and start the new year off with a bang!!! I am loving the changes in my body that I have already and I love how strong I feel! Most of all I love the time Bobby and I spend together in the gym:) It will be even more precious when his classes start back up January 9. I can not believe that it is new years eve tomorrow and 2011 is just about over! I am so excited to celebrate with a few close friends tomorrow night it should be a blast! Hopefully it will be the City next year to ring in our wedding year 2013 ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! XOXO

Thursday, December 29, 2011

A New Place to Call Home

So today we went by the new apartment complex to give them the final thing needed for our application to be submitted for approval and take a look at the apartment again/take pictures and we officially got approved! Yay! There was no reason we wouldn't be, but still you never know and knowing that we for sure have a new place is a big relief!! I am so excited to move, dealing with our landlords and living here has been so uncomfortable the last month and a half and I can't wait to be out of this situation. I know that it isn't going to be as easy as just leaving, but hopefully they won't try to do anything crazy and will just accept that we are willing to help them find replacement tenants and pay the one month penalty and call it good, but we will see.

We are supposed to go in tomorrow and sign our lease and our move in date will be January 25th! I love the new apartment, it is 2 bedroom 1 bathroom, open kitchen, the bedrooms are big and so is the living room. Since Bobby attends the University of Rochester we also get a special deal; reduced security, $700 off first months rent which just basically pays the $700 security deposit, application waiver, and we also are able to get an all inclusive package for our utilities which ends up saving us a lot of money. We just paid $100 heating bill at this place we are at now and it's only going to keep increasing the colder it gets! So crazy and so glad we won't have to do that anymore. Making one payment to our apartment complex and having it cover EVERYTHING is going to be so much better.

We have been looking at couches and decor and we are really excited to get in and start making it our home for the next year and a half. Everyone that works at the complex is SO helpful and nice I just wish we would have moved in there to start! But, live and learn. It is definitely going to suck to be moving in the middle of winter, but it will all be worth it in the end, and luckily we don't really have that much stuff to move. I will probably start gradually packing up little things once January rolls around, try to get a jump on it to hopefully relieve some of the stress.

So looking forward to all of the fresh starts that 2012 has in store, and this will be the first to kick off the year!!! What better than a new place to call home? :)

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A Fresh Start

So I had posted awhile ago that we got our first snow of the season...well this is true but it pales in comparison to what we have going on today! It has been snowing all day long and we have accumulated about 2-3 inches in a few hours. I always love it when it snows because its such a fresh clean look, and it can make almost anything look beautiful. It's like a fresh start to the day, and as odd as it sounds I always love being the first person to make a foot print in the snow there is something magical and special about snow.

As I said, we didn't get our white Christmas that we were hoping for, but it does look like we will be getting a white New Years, which I actually like better. Its a fresh start to a new year in a sense, at least thats how my cheesy mind looks at it. 2011 has been such a fantastic year and I really have no regrets or complaints. It hasn't all been perfect or good, but everything that has happened has happened for a reason and it has shaped our lives in ways we may not even know yet. There have been many amazing things that have happened this year: Bobby got into a top rated MBA program, we got engaged, we booked our wedding date, I am going to be an auntie, we have made a solid group of amazing friends in our new place, we have grown to appreciate California more ;), I have two great jobs for two great families with two great kids, my oldest brother was released from prison after over a year and will be starting college soon, we have so many things to be grateful for and I have learned to count my blessings every day. There have also been some sad, yet growing experiences this year as well; my best friend lost her first baby to a terrible disease, we moved 3,000 miles away and I had to say "see you soon" to my favorite little boys in the world, we had to leave all of our friends and family (temporarily), Bobby lost his uncle in a very tragic way, we got stuck in a crappy living situation (but are dealing with it), and two of my close friends are both dealing with two very different, yet sad battles along side their fathers. Along with bad, always comes good, and I can honestly say that I know everything happens for a reason and with each experience comes a lesson we can all learn from.

I can't even describe how excited I am for the new year. There are so many things to look forward to; a new apartment, Laura's baby shower for Miss Harlow, dress shopping with my best girl friends, meeting miss Harlow Adrianna in April, Bobby's completion of his first year of grad school, Bobby's internship during the summer, the arrival of my step-sister's baby in April, hopefully a trip to Boston in the spring, visiting my best friend in Alabama, visiting my babies in SoCal, a BUNCH of good friends' weddings in the fall, and I am sure many more that will surprise us along the way! I feel like I have grown so much over the past year, and especially over the past 6 months. I have learned to be happy, not complain, appreciate every little thing I have, use experiences as learning opportunities, and live life to the fullest. Through unfortunate means, I have learned to never take life for granted and to always be kind, loving, and non-judgmental. Also to appreciate everyone in my life and to never take their presence for granted either, you never know when their last day will be. My faith has grown immensely along with my relationship with Bobby and my friends and family.


10am 
2pm

Julia loves the snow!

No matter how we decide to celebrate the new year, it will be welcomed with open arms. Thank you 2011 for helping us grow, I look forward to 2012 in helping shape us even more. <3

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Wedding Theme

I know I have plenty of time to decide on a wedding "theme" and on colors etc but I actually think WE (yes I said we) have actually decided on a theme and colors for our wedding! Bobby usually doesn't have much to say about wedding stuff, at least not in the beginning, but lately he has been showing a lot more interest in the details of the wedding which makes me very happy and relieved. We have always known that we want our wedding to completely represent us and what we love, so we had decided awhile ago (before we even got engaged) that we want to somehow incorporate our love for travel into our wedding. That is actually how I came up with the name for this blog "Love is a Journey" I was thinking about travel and incorporating it into a day that is meant to be full of love and came up with that title and I believe it fits us to a "T". It inspired this blog and it also inspired my ideas for our wedding, so much so that I wanted to somehow incorporate that saying into the details of our wedding and have it be the overall theme for our wedding so that is exactly what we are going to do.

Coming to concrete decisions like this make me so excited and also make it so much easier to search for wedding ideas. Before I knew that I wanted to incorporate travel but really had no direction. Bobby and I sat down and were discussing colors and anyone who knows Bobby knows his favorite movie of all time is Indiana Jones, which is actually what guided us to the decision on colors. We want our colors to represent the colors of a vintage type world map; light blue, ivory, chocolate brown, beige, and possibly small pops of a red color. Ever since deciding on this whole theme and color combination I have been so excited and can't stop looking for more and more ideas. I truly believe this is going to come together so perfectly and represent exactly who we are and what we love to do together. We are also going to use names of places we have visited together as our table numbers...instead of numbers 1-10 we will have the name of the country. We also want to use a big vintage looking world map for our table assignments/escort cards, somehow pin peoples names to a specific country which would the table they would be sitting at. I have so many ideas rushing around in my mind now and its exciting and makes me feel so relieved to have plenty of time to bring all of these ideas to life! :) what do you think?!
Inspiration for it all